Lonely

yes lonely. been living in it for a long time. why me? the girl with laughter? i have no answer for that. because i'm looking for the reason why i am being lonely. alone. all the time.

i do have my friends. i have friends to study with

i do have friends to go for laser shots with

i do have friends to have my lunch with

i also have friends to laugh with

but they don't know what i'm thinking, they don't feel what i feels, they don't know my attitude, best thing is, they don't know me.

looking for people to be friend are easy, looking for friend who would be there for you, understands you and a good listener is hard. they do exist, just not yet to be found. for now. my best friend is my shadow and my roomate is my blanket. being lonely on the day i'm getting married, who wants to.....  but

that's possible... hmmm